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Today was GREAT. Went to the mall with a few of my best friends and the guy I like, he asked me out! At first, it was a little awkward, but then it eventually started getting less awkward. His hugs are THE best, and when we held hands, I got so much butterflies. Cliche, I know. It’s the truth though! I really hope this relationship works out and blossoms into something great. He’s an AMAZING guy and I’m lucky to be his girlfriend now! We Skyped for nearly 4 hours after we both got home from the mall. We Skype everyday and I love it!
Ehhh, what an O.K. day. Didn’t do much productive. Went to Lowe’s with my grandma to help her out with stuff. On the way home, there was a truck that fell over in the middle of an intersection of traffic. Freaky shit, yo. Skyped with him of course! So, my friend, “No”, was talking to him and I through chat and stuff. So he told “No” that he likes likes me the way I like like him, and “No” told me that. I was so happy, but relieved at the same time. I was afraid of rejection, but now I know he likes me back. “No” said there is a good chance he will ask me out Thursday at the mall when we hang out! I can’t wait! If he does ask me out Thursday, I’m making a promise to myself never to do anything to fuck up the relationship. I’ve done mistakes in the previous relationship that was part of the reason the relationship ended, but has also made me so much stronger and has made me make sure I won’t ever make the same mistakes again. I’m actually really thankful my previous relationship ended because I would have never had the opportunity to really be this close to him and have the opportunity to possibly be able to call him mine. Oh and Skype with him was great! Second best conversation I had with him; the first one was our 11 hour Skype session. LOL. I know I’m going to be the happiest girl in the world with him. He kept falling asleep on Skype though. But it was SOOO CUTE and it’s also cute when he laughs. Ahhhh. <3
Woke up way too early this morning for a Saturday to help my grandma go grocery shopping. She’s lucky I love her -.- LOL. That bump on my leg turned out to be a boil, but it’s getting better and better each day. I’m so relieved. I’m so happy Spring Break is finally here! I’m gonna try to make this the best! So Friday, I told about 4 or 5 people about the guy I like. One of my best friends talked to the guy I like to see if he liked me back. He does like me, but not like that YET! Me and him are going to the mall on Tuesday. I’m really excited! Our friendship started out so awkwardly, but I believe it has grown into something so much better. He’s so much sweeter and nicer than my ex ever was. He gives the best hugs too! He also smells really good all the time. LOL. For the past 2 days, him and I have skyped for more than hour. Today, for more about 6 hours. AMAZING. Still skyping at this moment (;
Waking up this morning was a struggle itself. If I fall asleep without taking benedryl for the itching, I wake up in the middle of the night and cannot stay asleep. When I do take benedryl and fall asleep, I stay sound asleep basically throughout the night. Its a great thing to stay asleep, but I don’t want to become dependent on medicine for me to stay asleep. School was fine. It was FREEZING, outside and inside the school. It was beautiful yesterday, today its freezing, then tomorrow should be nice. I was sleepy the whole day too. -.-.. My eczema just started getting better, now I have more worries. This damn red bump showed up on my thigh about a little less than a week ago. It didn’t bother me a whole lot before, but now its starting to hurt to even walk. I told my my mom to call the doctors, she laughed. She thinks Tylenol will solve all my problems. Yeah, for a couple hours.. Maybe I’m worrying too much, but I think I should be. Its a pretty big bump..
Such a Sunday. I fell asleep on the floor next to one of my brother’s friends last night. LOL. Woke up at around 11 this morning still really tired. I have lots of eczema spots on my legs, but I finally got the courage to wear shorts. I felt quite confident. Filipino association practice was BLEH. My ex showed up and ot was completely awkward. I haven’t seen him in almost a month and whenever I saw him smile, my stomach would get butterflies, but drop at the same time. I didn’t realize how much I missed everything about him - especially the way he would smile. At one point, I kept to myself, but went somewhere to be by myself and cried. I know I still have feelings for my ex, but I really wish I didn’t. I know he doesn’t really care for me anymore, so why the hell do I keep loving him? FML.. Thank God for my dad. He cheered me up on the way home. Jokes, smiles, and laughter. He suggested I go out with another one of my brother’s friends - the one I fell asleep next to. I think he’s pretty cute. He really does seem like a great guy. But, I want to make sure I’m completely over my ex first. Hopefully soon. Dammit, school tomorrow. Thank goodness spring break starts next week! I NEED plans.
Oh, what a day. For starters, I woke up way too early. But I had to, for Solo and Ensemble. What’s that you ask? Solo and Ensemble is an event where you are adjudicated (judged) on your prepared piece. The ratings range from 1-5. 1 being the best score you could get and 5 being the worst. I got a 2 for the piece I sang. That is actually pretty good. I’m satisfied and that’s all that really matters. If I do Solo and Ensemble next year, I will work a lot harder. Definitely. My brother invited his four friends to spend the night. I thought I would have been driven crazy by now, but surprisingly, they’ve been nothing but entertaining, funny, and chill. They are some cool kids. I sure think so c: . So weeks ago, my ex and I broke. I have been sad and crying here and there, but I’ve been getting through it. He has called me names and pushed me down (emotionally) many times. We haven’t always been the “picture perfect couple”. I just think we weren’t meant to be, which is all good. Plenty of fish in the sea! Plus, I’m still young, I can live a little and flirt! I’ll never forget the good memories my ex and I have had. I’ll always think more about the positives a lot more than the negatives. I know we’ll be apart for a while, but maybe one day, we can talk again and reconnect so much better than before. For now, I have to let go. No more tears. All smiles. I’m going to be O.K.! I’m actually grateful for these life lessons. It helps guide me to not fuck up in the long wrong. LOL. Update you guys later! c:
